I don't know why I am posting this....

Nobody ever said we could end up like this.
I kissed the lips of your lies away.
I remember you told me, "love can't save you, only my new powers can," But it looks like you lied about that too.
You dropped the heart.
You broke the name.
Baby, tell me, why do you live this way?
Lips against lips,
Like hips attatched to hips.
I fell in love by accident,
You cheated on the dance floor.
Call the police man.
I think we've got ourselves a scene.
Although you seem to disagree, "This ain't a scene," But baby, it's no god damn arms race. Just a slip of my sanity.
Just a whisp from my lips.
Nobody loves me, baby.
No, not even you.
I can hang on to the phone.
I can sleep to the lullaby of the hallow dial tone.
His taste turned bittersweet.
His love had formed to lust.
Baby, don't come home to see me.
Your girl's waiting by the bus.
Forget me and my ways.
It's much easier than it seems.
I need some time to forget.
My heart has no self-esteem.
I know you know.
You know it well.
The devotion of my heart is a tool.
I wish you'd know.
That I did'nt know.
Breaking hearts never looked so cool.


I wrote this when we weren't talking. Why I am posting this I have no idea! You seem so sad all of a sudden did something happen between you and her? Please smile and don't fake it, because it hurts me so bad. I miss you! I miss the guys! Mostly I miss just laying around with you and having to say nothing and we know what the other might be thinking.

I am still sick I really want it to go away! I am finally keepng food down, which is a good thing I guess! I hate food, its not my friend!

More later....