The fabrics of me...

So lately things have been so busy around here but I still find the time to hate things around me(including myself).
So this it my first blog here I am new here...I know what a blog is got a myspace, a livejournal, buzznet, or FoE then you know what it is.
I might not be able to start my classes on Monday for vocal performance because they still havent given me the final ok even though I have done everything that they have asked me to.
I would love nothing more to be in the music business.
I fill notebooks up with lyrics that just pop in my head.
I can't sleep in fear of never waking up.
I hate disappointing people.
I pick myself apart and find every flaw.
I want to find love so badly but I always end up the one hurt.
Friends come and go and that sucks.
I am so tired of always being judged.
I hate the phrase 'there are plenty of fish in the sea'.... for fishermen there are.
Silence can be golden.
I wish I wasn't alone.
I still can't believe I moved away from my mom and step-dad to Georgia where my father lives and I don't live with him either.
I really do wish life had an easy button.
I swear that I am a blonde at heart some days.
I didn't go home for the holidays.
It's hard being a 20 year old and broke trying to figure out my way.
I wan't to move to California... I wonder if its all its cracked up to be.


~I wish I could lay in a sea of dreams forever~