Jumbled things....

I'm not going to die,
I'm not going to give in,
I'm going to stay here,
and fight my way to the end.

(Im in pain right now I think I have another flare up coming on and it sucks so bad. I hate dealing with health problems. I think its from dealing with stress the past few days.)

You can push and shove,
Call me names,
Try to ruin my name,
and hurl things my way.

(I swear you are fucking bipolar Pete. Happy and talking to me the one minute the next your bitching me out and sending me pictures of you and her on your birthday.)

In the end,
I still stand,
Strong and Proud,
You can't win.

(Because even your new powers have no effect on me. I have taken your blows and others too and I am still making it through. I want to be back with Lee :( I miss here and everyone.)

My fight is
For my life,
The one I lead,
Without a dream.

(even though I have alot of dreams right now... but music and singing and being with lee are all on the top of that list.)

All the pain,
and the sorrow,
Will soon fade,
in passing days.

(When everything will go my way and be how I want it to be it will.)

But that is
still so far away,
and I'm left to
fend for my way.

(I have done everything I need to have everything Ive got in my life, and I will keep doing it until I have everything in my life I deserve.)

I'm not going to break,
But I will start to bend.
I'm not going to fall,
But I will start to slip.

(Life will always be this way.)

You're not going to win,
Even if I lose,
Because I'm not dieing,
or giving in...

(nor do I ever plan to.)


So I am feeling a little under the weather right now.....
More later....
AshleyRockstar