Something started...

Here's something I started to write the other day. When It's done I'll be sure to share the whole finished product with all of you.

What is love?
Is it a billion shinging stars in the sky and the brightest one is only for the two of you?
The two lovers tangled together, but one question remains. Is their love a lie?
Star crossed lovers, together at heart but miles apart. What kept them that way? Lie after lies, deception, false hopes. Oh what could have been.
What is love?
Is it a million different love songs, but only one rings true?
Can one not seal the deal? Make you laugh, cry, and feel everything all at once?

Hope you like the preview....

grant me some peace....

I'm finding it hard to get by right now. I mean really. I know I know all of you are going to be like suck it up, it's really not that bad. If only some people really knew.

I have a job. Do I love it? No. Do I need it? Yes, more then anything. I'm getting the hours but not the pay I was supposed to be getting. I'm literally scraping by. I'm honestly lucky right now when I have a few bucks to spare for gas and to go to the dollar store to pick up a box of ramen that has to last me for two weeks.

Yes people times have really fallen that hard. I woke up this morning and after paying 40 myself and my mom kindly paying 50 last week on my over due cell phone bill...which by the way is the only way I can talk to people...I wake up to it being shut off. Really? I kind of just want to burst out in tears. The cable is off, because I couldn't afford to pay for that (I still owe my roommate/cousin money). Last month my roommate lost or had stolen 60 dollars that I gave her towards rent and bills, so I had to fork over another 60. Heck I'm picking up some wifi just to post this up.

Yes sob story I know, this is my vent read it or don't.

I wish I could hit it lucky. More money, more hours, more anything at this point but the bad. I'm at a lost of what to do. I need help, but I feel like if I go to my family it means I'm failing.... before I curl in a ball and just give up.

heavy is the head that wears the crown, don't let the greatness get you down...

My oh my what a way to end and start a new year. How crazy is it, that it's 2011 already?!

So for christmas I went to Miami! It was tons of fun, the relaxation that I needed. I got to write every morning!

Who wouldn't with that view right there though? I finished a couple songs and I'm really proud of them honestly. It was really nice to meet my dad's fiance's family finally. I mean they have been together for like over two years now. Let me tell you, the Latinos sure know how to party. Food, drinking, dancing. It was just so much fun!

New years was just as great. I had to work till about six, rush home, get ready for everyone that was coming over. The theme was to wear something new and red, and we did all these other things that are traditions. Have coins in your pocket, eat 12 grapes, and kiss at midnight. No mine wasn't a real kiss, I have no one to kiss! Ha! It was just nice to hang out with people and catch up on what had been going on since we saw them last. Games, watching the ball drop, way more food then we needed, the works!

So this week has been an adventure already. I found out about a possible job. It would require me to move though. I have to say...I'm willing to take it. It's back in Augusta where I was living a few years ago, really when most of this blog started. I have people I know there, unlike here. I would have one schedual. More money. Benifits, which is a major plus, because I have nothing right now and it all comes out of pocket. Other then finding that out, my car decided to give me problems. As I was driving to work, I rolled on up to a stop light. What happened? It shut right off, no lights worked, it wouldn't turn back on, nothing! Luckily for me there was a cop just a few cars back and saw people going around me. Him as well as another man pulled over and helpped push me out of the road. The big man upstairs must have been watching out for me! However...a new alternator, the belts for it, and new battery terminals later, I'm out about $546.26. Can we say ouch?! Almost all of that is labor too! They really like to rip you off with that. But, what's done is done. I'm safe, the car is fixed, and I have an interview next wednesday for that job!

Wish me luck people, and let's hope for my sake that this year is the best yet!