Will May ever come?

So this past weekend was so busy. Mary's Birthday was Friday. Had a wedding to go to on Saturday and then went out to dinner for Mary's b-day. German food is good. And yesterday we went to six flags for Mary and Tim's b-day. I feel old. Mary only turned 19 and Tim is turning 16 ahhhhh! Sometimes I forget he is so young because he looks and acts so much older. I want the end of May to get here so that I can go and see Lee! I am really excited. It makes me miss highschool sometimes things were a little easier then. I miss seeing the guys and talking to them all the time like I used to. This summer is going to be so different for me. I was always used to coming down to Georgia. Now I am going to see Lee for three weeks, come back for a day and leave the next night to finally go and see my mom after 8 months. Times have changed so much, struggling to get back into school not being able to find a job for so long because I am either over qualified or have no qualifications at all. Music and singing is all I want to do with my life yet there isn't too much I can do with that around here. Not too many gigs have been coming my way lately, but to be honest I really haven't had the time to do them and it all stops after next weekend so that I can spend the week packing, heading to my fatthers house to work for a week and then to go and see Lee!

More later <3 ~Ashley

Here I Am

Here I am
in darkness
in shame
depressed and stressed
losing my faith
then I see something
not recognizing
what I'm looking at
is me


So here is my first post in a while. Things have been so crazy. I am really looking forward to this summer, I need to get away. I am so stressed about the little things that are going on and that still need to be done. I can't wait to see Lee, about a month left and I finally get to make my way to see her. Still have to buy the plan ticket but there is no problem with that. Taking my ACTs again on Saturday, I will have an 18 or higher this time I swear it with all my being. I will go to SEMO, I am NOT going to stay here and go to ASU! Ahhhhh! Did a little shopping on Tuesday which I shouldnt have I spend $135 in a matter of an hour! So bad. I bought alot though. Things for the summer and whatnot.

More later....
<3 ~ Ashley!